Thursday, August 27, 2009

Busy Bees

First of all, if you haven't been over to Landonville to meet our new nephew, you totally should. He is so cute!

And I hear he sleeps better than Charles already... what can I say, sleep training has been a total bust. We let him cry, and he just cries harder, until, before you know it, an hour has passed, he is hiccoughing and red in the face and I am crying and all our ears hurt and Buster has retreated to the backyard for some peace. Ferber, Weissbluth, Sleep Easy... all tried and failed. If Charles sleeps for any length of time, it is at the beginning of the night, so that by the time I get to bed at 11:30, after having done a ton and a half of housework, he is on the downhill slide to waking up sometime in the next three hours. He is teething (again! I can't even be sure how many teeth are coming in, it is outrageous!) and, consequently, has a cold and is in pain, so he wakes up more for that. I kid you not, I haven't had more than 3 consecutive hours of sleep a night in, well, since he was born maybe, and most nights my cumulative score isn't much beyond 5 or 6. It is driving me slowly insane.

And my insanity is manifesting itself now, with the combination of PMS, into crying jags and offense taken at every minor jab. Kid me about my pants not fitting? I'll remind you how I wait on everyone in my house, work my ass off at Goodwinds, and still have 10 pounds to lose that may NEVER come off, for all I can tell, so youcanshutthehellupI'mdoingthebestIcan, dammit!

On another note, since now I'm going to get a call from my mom begging me not to jump off a cliff, we have been extremely busy lately, which is why, unfortunately, I don't have any photos for you. My brother went to New York to visit some friends, so my Dad came up and we ran Goodwinds and went to a family reunion last weekend. Daddy has all the photos from that trip, I'll try to get them this week.

Running Goodwinds without Leland has been stressful, to say the least. I liken it to going on maternity leave... you do your level best to prepare for any idiot to take over your job, planning for any eventuality, leaving detailed notes and instructions. My brother did none of this, and Dad and I struggled mightily. Thank God Leland is back today, we might actually catch up. Unfortunately, Charles had to spend both Friday and Monday neglected at work while I put together orders and tried to make progress. Sorry, kiddo.

I went jeans shopping, because I am giving up. Well, not really. I have been doing the 30 Day Shred, but I have lost ZERO pounds over the last 3 weeks, and I didn't have a single pair of jeans that fit. We are heading to the beach in September for an extended vacation, and you just can't wear shorts that often at the beach. In late September. So, I broke down, spent money I don't have, and bought two pair at Target that are a size larger than I wore pre-pregnancy. Sigh. I don't want to be fat anymore.

Tomorrow is the Habitat for Humanity ReStore grand opening, on which Tony has been working hard, and then this weekend we have a company picnic and a wedding to attend. Must go wedding gift shopping.

So, not like you wanted that loooong excuse for not posting recently, but there you go anyhow.


Sylvie said...

Hugs to you..I know it's hard to be sleep deprived..And I understand you can be really frustrated with Charles's sleeping habits..Hang in there. One day soon he WILL sleep through the night.

chasecarole said...

Take a breath. In and out. Ah. That's better!

If it makes you feel any better, Jenna still gets up in the middle of the night, too. So when you're up at four am and about to collapse into a fit of exhausted tears, take heart and remember that your friend five hours away is also awake and near tears. Solidarity!

The last ten pounds will come off when you quit nursing. Nursing (or in my case, pumping) is so awesome for those first few months because the weight just flies off. Then when you're down to your last few pounds, your old pal nursing turns on you. It's nature's way of making sure you can produce good milk. The weight will come off, I swear.

I'm excited to see you guys when you come!

Mom and Dad said...

I would echo what Sylvie and Carol have said. We love you and think you are doing a tremendous job. I know it may not be much consolation, but you have a very tough job. You do it very well. However, you know better than most, sleep deprivation is a tough cookie. Not having ever taken off the twenty pounds I gained over two kids....can't think of anything encouraging to say. Love yourself as you love your family. Sleep and weight loss will come. You work too hard at it for it not to happen. Honest injun.