Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Panic and Relief

I had the first real scare of any of my pregnancies yesterday: after fighting terrible nausea all morning and struggling through a crashed server at work, I went home to find I was spotting blood.

 

My blood pressure immediately went through the roof.

 

I made myself calm down, but only after letting a few terrified sobs escape.  I crawled into bed and tried to sleep.  I tried to be sage about it all, telling myself that “spotting is completely normal” and “it will probably be gone by the time I have to pick the kids up from preschool.”  It wasn’t, but by that time, I had to get Charles to swim lessons and put together snacks and think about what we would do for dinner.  I distracted myself for a couple of hours, basically.

 

After swim lessons, I was passing clots of blood.  Clots.  I called Tony, then I called my doctor – who, thankfully, has extended office hours on Tuesdays.  They got me right in, while the boys got to eat pizza at Costco and do my shopping for me.

 

The baby is fine – we heard a strong heartbeat.  My cervix is tightly closed.  The blood was likely a fluke, some fatigued blood vessel bursting and causing me to panic and worry.  It’s unrelated to exercise and my doctor said that it happens in 50% of the pregnancies he sees.

 

But it’s never happened to me before, and it was terrible.  I guess it also made me realize how much I already love, adore, and want this baby.  This is it for us.  To put my body through another pregnancy would be insane.  Shit, I was up all last night being sick and I don’t feel much better today!  My body is old and randomly busting open blood vessels.  I don’t want to make you jealous or anything, but I’ve already gained TWENTY POUNDS this pregnancy, and I have nearly 25 weeks to go.

 

I’ll have another chance to hear baby’s heartbeat next week at a more “regular” appointment, along with, hopefully, a more “regular” blood pressure reading.  Mine was understandably jacked up last night.

 

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15 weeks and change – I do pregnancy BIG.

5 comments:

Sandra said...

You look so good pregnant. The glow looks great on you. :) So glad to hear everything is okay!

Jennifer L. said...

You do pregnancy beautifully!

Hailey said...

I know the feeling. I had bleeding with Liam at 11 weeks and was in such a panic. But an U/S reassured us everything was OK. Then I had 5 DAYS of bleeding with this pregnancy around 7 weeks. I was less panicked as I knew there was nothing we could do about it. Had an U/S and they were able to get a heartbeat. Such a relief. Now I am 26 weeks!

Tiffany Crain said...

I had that happen in my third pregnancy, too. It is so scary, and everything turned out fine. Glad everything checked out!

Margarita Primavera said...

Whew, that's scary! I'm glad you and baby are okay and that things are back to "normal" :)